He'd expected something like this, honestly. It better feel real soon, he'd told her, and sure, she's not stupid, she'd seen the corpses and the trials, but maybe it hadn't mattered. It's not like she was all that attached to those who died.
But now it's real, cuz now it got close to her. When had it happened to him? Sometime on the train. His mentor had come in to talk to him, and he'd stared at her in numb horror. It feels so long ago, but oh, he remembers the way he'd shook. He'd thrown up afterwards, and that had been nothing compared to being shoved through training, interviews . . .
But it didn't compare to that initial bloodbath. Nothing woke him up better than that.
His arm wraps around her, his other hand smoothing lightly over the curve of her head, tugging her into him, feeling his shirt grow damp as she sobs.]
Shh, shh--
[It's a little rough, but he won't pull back, not til she's ready.]
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He'd expected something like this, honestly. It better feel real soon, he'd told her, and sure, she's not stupid, she'd seen the corpses and the trials, but maybe it hadn't mattered. It's not like she was all that attached to those who died.
But now it's real, cuz now it got close to her. When had it happened to him? Sometime on the train. His mentor had come in to talk to him, and he'd stared at her in numb horror. It feels so long ago, but oh, he remembers the way he'd shook. He'd thrown up afterwards, and that had been nothing compared to being shoved through training, interviews . . .
But it didn't compare to that initial bloodbath. Nothing woke him up better than that.
His arm wraps around her, his other hand smoothing lightly over the curve of her head, tugging her into him, feeling his shirt grow damp as she sobs.]
Shh, shh--
[It's a little rough, but he won't pull back, not til she's ready.]